Determination

Determination is the condition of being determined, and yet this is the thing that I do not have.

I'm always lack of determination to complete whatever I've started, for example, I learned piano when I was young, but never achieve the 8th grade. I learned Chinese Calligraphy when I was young, but my writing is a piece of art which is barely neat. I promised to diet and lose weight since a decade ago but my body weight never drop since then.

Where is my determination gone? There's a saying in chinese which is 一日討海，三日曝網。Which means today I'm so sure that I want to do this, but I will forget about it after a few days. This proverb suits me exactly, I think.

What should I do? How should I start? Maybe I should give myself a challenge, a 2 weeks or even 1 month challenge. I shall start now, I should remember that I will not regret of what I have done, but will only regret on what I didn't do when I can. Good luck to me! :)









xoxo Jen xoxo

Trust is the catalyst of LOVE

TRUST
Pronunciation: /trʌst/

defination according to oxford dictionary:
noun
[mass noun]
1. firm belief in the reliability, truth, or ability of someone or something: relations have to be built on trust.
[count noun]
2. Law an arrangement whereby a person (a trustee) holds property as its nominal owner for the good of one or more beneficiaries: a trust was set up.

verb
[with object]
1. believe in the reliability, truth, or ability of: I should never have trusted him.

Trust is simple yet complicated.
A stranger asked you for direction because he trusted that you could give him the correct direction. You gave some money to the old lady begging around the food court because you trusted her that she doesn't have the ability to work and doesn't have anyone supporting her. These are the simple trusts that you don't even realize you are having them.

Trust is an important element in a relationship, the most basic trust is trusting your partner. We learn trust in our relationship, trust is built when your partner consistently keep their agreement. Most people doesn't trust their other half as their promises are usually not clearly stated or assumed. The other reason is that many people make agreements which they can't really keep. Hence, trust is betrayed when the agreements between the couple are not kept, causing lack of trust.



Many couples never make it past the most basic layer of trust in a relationship, which is trusting your partner. So learn how to trust your partner and also yourself in order to experience a romantic relationship and live happily ever after. :)



Start to learn how to trust yourself, others and your life deeply in order to live a better and happy life.


* pictures are taken from google, definition is taken from oxford dictionary and article referred from galtime.

xoxo
Jenny

我恨我愛你

My friend feels that my boyfie is quite similar to 林欣甫, she says at the first sight on 林欣甫, she thought of my boyfie. She said not the face of course, is the feel.... >.<

current favorite song in my playlist, 我恨我爱你, I think is the lyrics plus his sound and the way he sings that melted my heart, it's very touching and full of feelings, I really like it a lot!

我恨我愛你

作詞：鄭淑妃
作曲：陳達偉
編曲：Terence Teo

面帶微笑離開你懷裡　我聽天由命
最後一張王牌在手裡　二選一的機率
不能放縱愛你　就放過自己

愛情已經過了甜蜜期　多說也是無益
愛不愛我已經沒關係　一點小傷而已
你可以很放心　我不會為了留你 假裝可憐兮兮

都怪我太不爭氣　我恨我愛你
Oh~ 我愛你　只是因為你是你

Oh~ 我恨你
你有我看也看不清的小聰明

你有我說也說不完的壞脾氣
你有我數也數不盡你的　新戀情

你有我看也看不清的小聰明
你有我說也說不完的壞脾氣
你有我數也數不盡你的　新戀情　沒關係

我有你拿也拿不走的舊回憶
我可以一個人安靜的忘記你
我恨你最後那一句～　我愛你

xoxo

Jen

The is soooo cute!!

sharing a short clip with ya'all.

the baby is so cute,he was trying to sleep but always startled by the snoring of the guy beside him.hahaha!! XD

xoxo Jen xoxo

gossip

friend who gossip with you,

will gossip without you.

xoxo Jen xoxo

since when?

Since when we can finish study for our exam?

Since when we didn't say the word 'regret' during exam or after exam?

Since when we really regret and start working hard after saying regret?

I think the answer for me is since form1,

I never done all of that..

xoxo Jen xoxo

promises.

Inspired by Waynie's post.

一句：I love you Forever
对于一对热恋中的男女，这话有多重大和动听~
一旦这感情断了
那些forever也一样的~消失了
我只能说，不要随便许下承诺

如果，其中一方还那么在意它的不存在，那~为什么不要在拥有的时候珍惜呢？

很可笑，也很矛盾
真的决定了放弃，怎么还那么在乎那些承诺
可能是自私的心态吧？

感情让每个人都受伤了，也让每个人成长
就算在感情上摔了一跤
只要勇敢的爬起来
事情久了，回头一看
还真的想谢谢曾经伤害过自己的人
让我得到了教训

谢谢那些伤害过我的人 =）
我学会了如何爬起来

........

Her post is really meaningful.

She grows up alot,but I'm still the same me.

I grow up physically but not mentally,

I'm still that childish and unconsiderate.

Why?

Maybe I never get hurt,

I'm the one who hurt others ever since I'm born.

That's why I never grow up.

The past memories are hunting me,

appear like video clips in my mind,

this is killing me,

I dare not to tell you.

But I know you will forgive me.

I never grow up,until the day I get hurt in future.

and I never appreciate,

because I know you will never get angry with me for long.

I'm selfish.

I think I'm good but actually I'm not.

I think I'm kind but actually I'm not.

you are so good to me,

whatever wrong I've done will eventually become your fault.

Why?

Because I'm so selfish that I think it's not my fault.

Because I'm so selfish that I think that's nth to angry about.

Because I know you love me and you could not stand the arguement.

Because you love me.

What's appreciate?

I'm still unfamiliar with this word.

teach me pls..

or,

just hurt me.

I don't want to think like a child.

I don't want to hurt anyone anymore.

-emo post.

Jen

ended.

Finally,his 1 week holiday ended. Time flies huh? The days with him dashed away like minutes. It's so damm fast!

He is going back today. One week is not enough! There are so many things we haven't do together..

** Kites.

** back pack travel.

** Jungle tracking.

** Tropical fruit farm.

** print our couple shirt.

** talk under the moonlight.

** many many many more....

><

We have a few dates together,not luxurious dates but simple dates for just two of us.

=)

We went to jucso's popular to buy some stationary and books on Tuesday. We met sherlyn and her Wayne. She's is pretty and cute! =)

Wednesday,Secret recipe~

wuu~ We love cheese!

I'm full!!

So,I decided to take pictures~ kacau him.. ><

I love this pic!! I love him. =)

Finally we finished them.

The lagsanae was delicious! And the cakes were so nice! But too 腻,wanna vomit d. ><

Here's the kacau kacau pictures~ XD

This ends our day.

The next day,he made me a appetizer. I should call this vege-chicken-ham-rolls.

He says this dish same like 5 stars restaurant dish. ><

see the love? hehe..

He is going back after a few hours. ='(

Promises.

study hard together.

take care yourself.

have your meal on time.

Don't kacau when studying.

I'll be more hardworking.

I ❤ you.

xoxo Jen xoxo

BFF

Yesterday went for a movie with my ahmi waynie,together with her brothers.We watched TRANSFORMER!!! It's a super super nice movie! It's so worth to watch! 2 and a half hours,normally I'll feel bored and move my eyes away from the screen during fighting scene but not for this! not for TRANSFORMER! I just can't even blink my eyes,not to say move my eyes away from the screen.OMG! It's just so nice!

Ok well,after the movie,we were freaking freezing and trembling until we went in to car park. ==
Thanks to waynie's bro,for the movie,as he insisted to pay for me. And also her dad for the durians.I was so full.Her family is so kind. =)

stupiak pichass in the car~~~





I ❤ ya, Waynie!



LOL! feel so shy..

xoxo Jen xoxo

520 520!

The days we have been together..

there are happiness,sadness,siao-ness.....aiya,every single moment with you is very precious.

=)

and for 1st of July,the 520th day we have been together,I have made you a card.

HAPPY 520th DAY!!

HNG!

xoxo Jen xoxo

whats up!

I'm in blogging mood now but I don't have any idea on what to blog about.My life is the same for days or even for yearss.you see,I'm stucked in JSHS for the 7 years! Everything is about the same,schooling,tuitioning and cutting our hair.

But then,there are some changes in lower6 and the following form6 students.They have house practises beginning next month but for 1 month.They have 5 games to complete in every house practise day for 1 and a half hours.and then there where some sort of sukan tara or competition for them.I think the games are maybe basketball kind of games.It's quite fun I think,playing and competing among the same form school mates that knew each other at least 5 years.But kinda sien too lar because have to stayback after school for house practises.

We are so fortunate to born in year 1990.We are the 1st batch uses english for science and mathematics for PMR and SPM,last batch of form6 of having classes until 1.20pm,oh ya,and our age are easy to count.Still have other more reasons that I called that we are lucky 1990 babies. ><

ok then,about the H1N1.There was a Menteri called that selesema babi,and a reporter too.I'm not clear about this whole thing,but according to Mr Goay,the menteri gave a reason that the word H1N1 might confuse 'their people' that they will so stupidly pronounce H1N1 as HINI.What a excuse that he gave.Does 'their people' so ignorant that they can't even read the word H1N1?! Even a kindergarden kid saying H1N1 here and there.What a joke of our country. ==

Talking about this,I think of our PA(pengajian am) exam paper.Just like what Mr Goay said,our paper2 have some standard for the globalisasi and other question,not like paper1,abit zzz...What the hell is Perkara 6,PP or Perlara 9,PP?? We are not studying law you know? And who knows about PPSMI,CEUPACS,COLA or KPI?! oh yea,coca-cola I know.Don't you know that you should write the full name first and put the short forms in brackets? We students also know about that when we write essay,yet you are the KETUA PANITIA,even worse.About the calculation,LOL,I have nothing to say.Mr Goay asked us to accept it and count our marks again to see where we stand.(by throwing all those xx questions) So what I can say is,this is the worst school exam paper1 by a KETUA I did before.

ok,end of my venting of dissatisfaction.and I have accepted my paper1 result.

PEACE.

=)

ohya ohya..

RIP,MJ.

p/s:

I really really really want to watch Transformer.

=(

xoxo Jen xoxo

news that everyone knew

I believe everyone knew this news long time ago,I heard it from my classmate ages ago too,but just saw the news in newspaper,ehe..

click here

It's just so disgusting.

Ueekkk!!

How if this happens in Malaysia huh?

hhmmmmm.....*evil grin*

gonna memorize my rat's organs and arteries d...

=(

p/s:

wanna keep my fringe? or cut it?

xoxo Jen xoxo

wwwuuuuuu

wwuuuuuu...Ice creamss!!!so colourful..but its all colouring,chemicalss..
=(

ok straight into the main topic,I forgot to say that in form6,no more last minute study,you cant afford to do that! So,I have to keep revising my studies now,next week maybe,ehe~

I have quiz on this on monday.


but I'm facing dilema..

how eh?

Twilight? memorize the organs and arteries? PSP? rubik cube?
aarrrhhhh~~

no choice,start to memorize tomorrow!
bless me~











p/s:
my Teddy's back,my bro's back..
wwoooo~~










xoxo Jen xoxo

finally

ppifffff~~

finally finished my mid term exam

had a hard time struggling through this whole week,everyday facing all those black and white notes,from 3pm until 1am for this whole week! If I've done this everyday since January until november,I'm surely will score 4.0 in STPM and apply for nutrition.

holiday started! schedule full~~

1st June monday

gonna go to school for the rat disection quiz,

2nd June Tuesday

backpack travel to penang as not yet done on month?

3rd June Wednesday

rat disection day! wooooo~

after that go for S9 gathering.

but gonna have alot S9ers' partners going too.

5th June friday

shopping day!

wooooo..

still have to finish reading Twilight and study!!

how to earn moneyyyyy?

I wanna earn money........

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

HAPPY HOLIDAY!!

xoxo Jen xoxo

xxxxxx

7 of these + 1 more in hostel.

have to finish all of them in 2 days.

= =

xoxo Jen xoxo

❤❤❤❤

wooooo~~

BIOLOGY

I ❤ you..

do ❤ me back too..

CHEMISTRY

I ❤ you too..

so pls ❤ me back..

MATHS

I ❤ you very very much!

I know you ❤ me too..

PA

I also ❤ you.

❤ me back ya.

aleluya

amitabah

jesus

maria

guanyin

duapekgong

tigong

bless me to remember what I had studied..

I ❤ you all!

p/s,

this is what we call 临时抱佛脚

*do not learn it without professional

xoxo Jen xoxo

Foooooodddd =(

seriously.

no more fast food!

no more fried,oily food!

goodbye mcD

goodbye fish market

goodbye nasi lemak

goodbye maggie mee

goodbye sch canteen

goodbye bread

hello subway!

hello vege n fuity!

hello oats!

=.=

xoxo Jen xoxo

slim n pretty?

hmm..

every girl wanna be slim and pretty,

included me.

once I saw a blog,

the guy wrote that fat girls aren't healthy,

that's why they are fat.

That means I'm not healthy enough.

healthy diet?

I'm having breakfast and lunch in school,

obviously,there is no healthy food there.

dinner out,

but I still eat some fruits.

I once tried to have apple for my meal,

after a week it really works,

but when menstrual.....

stomach pain like hell.

so I'm not going to skip or replace any meal with apple.

exercise?

I don't have time to do it,

yea its a excuse.

I don't have accompanion,

a good excuse.

but its true,

it's dangerous out there,

everyday snatch theft,kidnap,rapeee..

I not dare to go jogging alone.. @@

aiya.

like this how am I going to be slim?!

I don't have the motivation also,

since my Teddy Lean says he don't care.

(because he is fat too... >< )

confidence?

nope,I don't have them.

I'm too fat to be confident on myself.

=(

ok fine.

I wanna be slim and pretty for what?

people that only good with you if you are slim and pretty are not real friend,

people that don't even greet or look at you becaue your face are ugly and 带衰 are not real friend,

people that laugh at you in front or behind you because of your fat body are not real friend either.

yea,

I have my real friends who say I'm not really fat,

I have my real friends who encourage me to diet,

I have my real friends who wanna diet together with me,

and I have my boy friend that love me no matter how fat am I.

*all these are excuses again.  = =

but,

I still wanna be slim,

just that I don't have the motivation,

so guyss...

don't tell me I'm not fat,

tell me I'm fat and ask me to exercise more k!

ohya I remembered,

my 4everS9 friends call me 'dua bui Jen'

now I have my motivation.

=.=

xoxo Jen xoxo

♥

My dear,Teddy Lean




you complete me.

=)

xoxo Jen xoxo

girls~

yeah,
I'm here to write about our girl's bday.
first...
Let me present our girl...
miss lolo~~~~~

Ok~ let the story begins.
on 2nd of May we all have tuition,
so we decided to have a surprise celebration for her,
abd so,we did it at tuition.
Someone gonna cry~

Those who attend::


and this were our tables in class,all empty~


Ok,next was our girls' celebration.
Let me introduce~
my beloved Irene n me
Happy family~

On 5th May,
WY n me celebrated with Irene,
She was late as our Mr Na treated her rojak and cucuk for her bday.
and so we waited until 3something.
Tiramisu cake~ yumyum
How beautiful!!! =D



The spagheti~

We ate the cake with our spoon.. XD



and then,we gave her the presents.
total I think is 5 or 6 items for her.
I hope she likes it!!
=)
our happy bday girl~

On the next day,
we went for a movie at Sunway Carnival,
Fast n Furious 4,
nice movie tho.




We had a happy day together,
with tired legs,
haha!!
The End
with my monkey face~




I L♥VE you guys!!!
BFF
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xoxo Jen xoxo